Gold forcibly sobers himself, shaking his head to clear it. "My apologies. I brought up children because it seemed to be a happy subject for you, not to -- this." He gestures at himself, still not venturing to make eye contact. "It...is very recent and this is probably the first I have mentioned it" or allowed himself to think of it "since arriving here."

He didn't really have the presence of mind to realize it was only the first time because clearly, he must have felt safe enough to, for whatever reason. But presently he is just too concerned with not allowing himself to react.