[Stolas relaxes a little as Gold settles into his seat. This is familiar and helps to ease his nerves slightly. At least, it did for a moment.
Once Gold starts speaking, Stolas is immediately listening. He's right, there's a lot that needs to...should be said. Stolas simply isn't good at this kind of thing and considering the last time he expressed his feelings for someone...
He had suspected that Gold admired him in some way and even nods slightly to acknowledge that yes, finding a connection with someone that wasn't their children is unexpected. As Gold continues to speak, his heart starts to feel like it's beating against his chest while butterflies feel like they just settled in his stomach.
It's surprising to hear that Gold spoke to Blitzo at some point in his defense. His relationship with the imp is...was...a mess. Just how much of a mess Stolas didn't really realize until they were both here. How may times did he try to fix his mistake with Blitzo and still end up...
Stolas draws in a deep breath and tries to banish the depressing thoughts to the best of his abilities. He needed to move on from it. Whatever is between him and Gold feels less like a chaotic whirlwind of obligations and lust of his last relationship and more...
He's not sure just how to describe it other than better.
It's also a little bit of a surprise to hear Gold admitting that he left a relationship behind as well and that there was someone here that reminded him of them. He doesn't have the faintest idea of who it might be and part of him isn't sure he wants to know.
But, what really steals his breath away is hearing Gold admit he has feelings for him that go beyond friendship. Stolas can feel his own anxiety spike and for once, it feels like it's in a good way. A sort of anticipation that this might be a moment that will change things for the better if he can just...
Just acknowledge his own feelings for once in his life.
He reaches for Gold's hands and gently places his own on top of them once he finishes, not daring to break eye contact as a smile starts to grace his features.]
For someone who says he's lacking the right words, I think you may have found the perfect ones without realizing it.
[He then shifts their hands so he can lace his finger's with Gold's. It's strange seeing his dark claws intermingled with human hands but, he finds that perhaps, it's a little...perfect.]
I think it can be said for both of us that feelings aren't exactly things we can express perfectly with words. Hell knows I tend to fail in the moments where it really counts.
Except, this time I don't intend on failing. I won't lie, you've seen the last relationship I was in and how much of a shit show it was. Blitz and I...it was toxic. It was built on lust and obligations that I forced on him. Then when I attempted to change it to hopefully make things better, it..
[He sighs.]
I've spent months trying to reach out to him and get nothing back. In that time trying, I've also come to realize that there was someone here that I felt drawn to more than I ever did to him.
[His smile is back as he gently holds Gold's hands.]
What I'm also trying to say is that I also adore you, Gold. I'm not sure what words to apply to this other than you are a steady, grounding presence in my life and spending time with you makes me happy.
Like, ridiculously happy if I'm being honest with myself.
[He manages to look a little sheepish, but that also doesn't stop him from just opening up the floodgates about how he feels. There's something encouraging knowing that his feelings may be reciprocated this time.]
Whatever this is between us, I want it to keep going. It's definitely more than friendship and while I'm hesitant to apply a label, I want to see it grow and to see what happens with you, with us.
I know that some day one of us may end up going home, whether our wishes are met or by Vaeros being a grumpy asshole. But, I don't want that to stop us from moving forward with this, if you are willing to find out with me?
I want you to be happy too. And if that means we're happy together, than lets be happy together.
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Once Gold starts speaking, Stolas is immediately listening. He's right, there's a lot that needs to...should be said. Stolas simply isn't good at this kind of thing and considering the last time he expressed his feelings for someone...
He had suspected that Gold admired him in some way and even nods slightly to acknowledge that yes, finding a connection with someone that wasn't their children is unexpected. As Gold continues to speak, his heart starts to feel like it's beating against his chest while butterflies feel like they just settled in his stomach.
It's surprising to hear that Gold spoke to Blitzo at some point in his defense. His relationship with the imp is...was...a mess. Just how much of a mess Stolas didn't really realize until they were both here. How may times did he try to fix his mistake with Blitzo and still end up...
Stolas draws in a deep breath and tries to banish the depressing thoughts to the best of his abilities. He needed to move on from it. Whatever is between him and Gold feels less like a chaotic whirlwind of obligations and lust of his last relationship and more...
He's not sure just how to describe it other than better.
It's also a little bit of a surprise to hear Gold admitting that he left a relationship behind as well and that there was someone here that reminded him of them. He doesn't have the faintest idea of who it might be and part of him isn't sure he wants to know.
But, what really steals his breath away is hearing Gold admit he has feelings for him that go beyond friendship. Stolas can feel his own anxiety spike and for once, it feels like it's in a good way. A sort of anticipation that this might be a moment that will change things for the better if he can just...
Just acknowledge his own feelings for once in his life.
He reaches for Gold's hands and gently places his own on top of them once he finishes, not daring to break eye contact as a smile starts to grace his features.]
For someone who says he's lacking the right words, I think you may have found the perfect ones without realizing it.
[He then shifts their hands so he can lace his finger's with Gold's. It's strange seeing his dark claws intermingled with human hands but, he finds that perhaps, it's a little...perfect.]
I think it can be said for both of us that feelings aren't exactly things we can express perfectly with words. Hell knows I tend to fail in the moments where it really counts.
Except, this time I don't intend on failing. I won't lie, you've seen the last relationship I was in and how much of a shit show it was. Blitz and I...it was toxic. It was built on lust and obligations that I forced on him. Then when I attempted to change it to hopefully make things better, it..
[He sighs.]
I've spent months trying to reach out to him and get nothing back. In that time trying, I've also come to realize that there was someone here that I felt drawn to more than I ever did to him.
[His smile is back as he gently holds Gold's hands.]
What I'm also trying to say is that I also adore you, Gold. I'm not sure what words to apply to this other than you are a steady, grounding presence in my life and spending time with you makes me happy.
Like, ridiculously happy if I'm being honest with myself.
[He manages to look a little sheepish, but that also doesn't stop him from just opening up the floodgates about how he feels. There's something encouraging knowing that his feelings may be reciprocated this time.]
Whatever this is between us, I want it to keep going. It's definitely more than friendship and while I'm hesitant to apply a label, I want to see it grow and to see what happens with you, with us.
I know that some day one of us may end up going home, whether our wishes are met or by Vaeros being a grumpy asshole. But, I don't want that to stop us from moving forward with this, if you are willing to find out with me?
I want you to be happy too. And if that means we're happy together, than lets be happy together.